Will the truth ever come out?

I don't think so. Just last week, someone informed me that a girl that is involved with the family told her that the girl that lied about my husband "made it all up." Huh? Okay: S. told me that A. told her that C. made it all up. Will the other two help? No. S. is worried about what others will think of her "talking" and A. is very much involved with the family.

I know that people think that if she lied it would eventually come out. The problem with some liars is that they are really good at it. I remember when I was a kid being told the b.s. story of "If you tell one lie, it will just lead to others and it will be impossible to keep straight." I thought that it was a crock then. If you just told the same lie over and over, you wouldn't have to remember much. Also how many people would be strong enough to take it all back once they realize how much they have hurt someone?

Also people do not care enough to get involved. Since it does not affect them, they do not feel the need to get involved. After the trial, people told me that they thought my husband was innocent, but where were they during the trial? We needed support and love during this episode, but very few actually checked on us. We needed help, but people did not feel the need to do anything. I do not think that the truth will ever come out.

An insignificant consequence

Tonight I watched the movie Practical Magic. I loved this movie when it came out. I have always wanted to be a little magical. Life would be easier it I could just conjure up a little something. :-) My husband and I have always loved watching movies together. Since he has been gone, I have not had the desire to watch any real movies. I can watch animated features. They are safe.
Tonight, I did not think about the content of the movie. I just remembered that I loved the movie. I watched it and at the end, I was depressed because I still had no magic powers and I do not know when my happy ending will come (or even if it will.)
It is now after midnight and I don't want to sleep because I am sad. A silly romantic movie is not supposed to make me feel like this. I have my soul mate. Life should be ideal. Right?

His "crime"

What was his crime?

He was a teacher in this day and age. He cared too much and got too involved. I know his motives because I was there. I knew his students and I watched him interact with them. He informed me of everything in his life and even in his career. He wanted me involved. He wanted my opinions of the events surrounding the students and faculty.

I think that there are people in this world who do not understand when someone has good motives and puts themselves on the line. When people do not understand what is going on and they rely on gossip, they look for anything that could be wrong. With that mindset, it does not take long to find what you are looking for.

Tuesdays

I really hate Tuesdays. Tuesdays are the only day that the mail runs that I do not get a letter from my husband.

A nasty turn

July 24, 2007. This is the day when my life was turned upside down. I watched as my husband was handcuffed and led away. I cannot tell you who I was next to or what I was wearing. All I knew was that my whole life was being ripped apart. I wanted to scream out that that THEY HAD GOTTEN IT WRONG! I was screaming it as loud as I could in my head, but I just couldn't get the words out. I knew that it would not help anyway. All I knew was that I had to tell our son that his father was not coming home.

Lies had just ruined my family and now we must face the consequences.